Even though I have benifitted from anti-depressants in the past, I am still very reluctant to start using them again when I'm feeling down. I want to shape my life in a way that teaches me the copingmechanisms to deal with what comes my way.
Antidepressants have made me lethargic in the past. I wasn't bothered with negative thoughts as much, but I also rarely experienced positive emotions nor the urge to change my life.
As long as it's possible to do without, I will not grab for the pills to ease my mind.

So far I've managed to survive without medication which I have tried, and I'm still here. I could be happier but I'm at least happy on my own terms.