Hi shaor,
Well, I should have known something was wrong because you've been clipping so many disaster stories lately. First of all, don't worry about us. We're good.
Now about you, it sounds to me like you might have a good case of depression going on. Don't hesitate to go to your regular doctor, tell him whats going on and that you think you may need to take antidepressants for awhile. You won't get hooked on them, people don't get hooked on them however some people think they do. Why take them? A better question is why not take them. Why suffer when you can get help. I'm pretty familiar with this whole subject if you have any questions.
About the deafness and people treating you differ...

Hi shaor,
Well, I should have known something was wrong because you've been clipping so many disaster stories lately. First of all, don't worry about us. We're good.
Now about you, it sounds to me like you might have a good case of depression going on. Don't hesitate to go to your regular doctor, tell him whats going on and that you think you may need to take antidepressants for awhile. You won't get hooked on them, people don't get hooked on them however some people think they do. Why take them? A better question is why not take them. Why suffer when you can get help. I'm pretty familiar with this whole subject if you have any questions.
About the deafness and people treating you different, they are the ones with the problem. Don't let their problem become your problem. This may not seem like much as far as advice goes right now but it sure has helped me. I had a couple of deaf women working under my supervision for about 5 years and because of them I have a hard time thinking of deafness as a disability. They were very clever and always playing the "deaf" card on me. I was insanely jealous of their social lives, deaf people must have one of the best social networks in the world. And then there's sex, something about being deaf that makes sex a whole lot better.
So please shaor, take care of yourself. Get some meds, learn to sign and make some new connections.
I really want to see things turn around for you. I'll leave this clip open for us to talk on any time you want to.